The Dream of Mommyhood

I have been MIA for a while. there were quite a few things that transpired over the past couple months that have taken me away from blogging.  With a heavy heart I would like to share my first bit of bad news......

On April 27th...looking back now happened to be a happy day & a gorgeous day but the worst day of my entire life.  It was a Friday and I got out of work early because we had a wedding to go to around 6:30.  I am so happy I was home early because the text I got I would have never been prepared for or capable of handling had I not been at home with my boyfriend.  It was from my step-mom around 5pm (I had missed a call because I was getting ready for the wedding) and it read:




"Call me ASAP it's urgent!!!!!!!!!"


My heart sank to my feet, I started shaking uncontrollably, I felt like I was going to pass out and before I even knew what was wrong all I kept thinking was "IS MY DAD OKAY????".


I called her back and her best friend's husband answered the phone.  He said "we are at the hospital your father has been in an accident, he had to be airlifted to Boston Medical Center" (I felt numb from that moment on....as if I was being jabbed by hundreds of needles I could barely hear what was being said to me) & he explained to me that my father had been hit by a car while going to get the trash barrels from the end of the road.  He explained the extent of his injuries, his arm had a compound fracture, his leg was broken, his pelvis had been shattered and he was getting a CT Scan to make sure there was no internal bleeding....that he was pretty beat up.  He put my stepmom on the phone and I will never forget the sadness in her voice, I knew it was really bad.

1. "Don't worry it will happen." (suck it!)
2. "Just relax it will happen!" (my ALL TIME FAVORITE)
3. "Stop stressing about it!" (really?!? thanks for the advice I'll be sure to tell myself that)
4. "Stop trying, it will happen....that's what happened to me." (if I stopped trying I will not be pregnant EVER)
5. "You're trying too hard." (No I'm not!!)
6. "When are you going guys going to have a baby? Get on it what are you waiting for?" (okay)
7. "Have you considered Clomid?" (ummmm it hasn't even been 6 months are you serious??)
8. "Has <<Enter man's name here>> had his sperm checked?" (last resort...I can't imagine bringing that up after 6 months and 4 months of REALLY trying)
9. "Just enjoy life now, once you have a kid everything changes, it's a lot of responsibility." (F@ck off...I'm not kidding... f@ck off!!)
10. "Just have sex every day for two weeks & you'." (When I come back in my next life and our schedules match up perfectly for even one week maybe that's a possibility.)

Photo Credit: Babygaga.com

• This monitor charts your hormones (both LH & Estrogen) and pinpoints your most fertile days to 2 PEAK days.  It goes from LOW to HIGH to PEAK to HIGH back doen to LOW.  Disclaimer: It may take a couple cycles to learn your cycles, so it can't be expected to work the first try.
• LH: Lutenizing Hormone
  Some LH is always present in urine, but it surges for 24 to 48 hours before ovulation.
   
• Estrogen (estrone-3-glucuronide):
  Also present in urine, surges prior to the LH surge. Stimulates fertile CM to help move the sperm along to their final destination.

• There are only a few days per cycle where you are fertile & can conceive.

• It is shown that fertility can begin up to 5 days prior to ovulation and ending on the day of ovulation. 

• An egg can survive up to 24 hours after ovulation

• Sperm survival rate is much more variable, the average is 1 1/2 days, but sperm can survive up to 5 days in the fertile days of the cycle (as long as your CM aka cervical mucous is plentiful).

• Studies show that a surge in LH levels occurs 24-36 hours prior to ovulation . The urinary LH surge pinpoints the two peak fertile days of a woman's cycle, with intercourse on these days.

• In the days leading up to the LH surge, estradiol levels rise gradually, reaching a threshold that triggers the preovulatory LH surge. Tracking the urinary metabolite of estradiol (estrone-3-glucuronide, E3G) allows women to identify the days of high fertility leading up to ovulation, where conception is also possible, and this also gives them advanced notice of their peak fertile days. (Credit: Clear Blue Easy)

• Estradiol stimulates secretion of cervical mucus (CM) that is favorable for the survival and transport of sperm. The rise in plasma estradiol corresponds closely to the appearance of sperm-supportive cervical mucus.10 Therefore, intercourse during the 6-day fertile period may also lead to conception, as sperm can survive for a number of days. (Credit: Clear Blue Easy) 

Low Fertility: very small chance of conception

High Fertility: increased chance of conception

Peak Fertility: highest chance of conception